Got The Blues

*Nothing to disclose

Hey y’all! Today is gonna be a personal post. It does come with a mani though πŸ™‚ Feel free to scroll to it if it’s all you wanna see! No hard feelings πŸ™‚ If you wanna read about what’s going on in my life, keep reading!

So, my life is kinda all over the place right now. Sometimes writing helps me get it all into perspective so here we are. Overall, life is good. I am very happily married, I am fed and clothed and I have a stable home. So why the freaking roller coaster? If you want a little extra read and more back story, read HERE. It may help with understanding all this. Caught up? Now, things have changed a little and my husband and I have decided to try and have a baby! Life is just different than it used to be. I am different than I used to be. Because of these life changes, I feel like I could really kill it at motherhood. My girls are much older, 15 & 12, but I am still young! Especially at heart. Not to brag but I am really fun and awesome lol. I love my girls and I see them when I can but they are teen/pre-teen. They are busy with school sports and friends. I just know that this time will be different. I have talked to my doctors about my meds and what is safe during pregnancy. I was told that I have to honestly weigh the benefits between my mental health and the health of the baby. My mental health issues are pretty extreme without meds. I mean, they have kept me out of work for about 7 years! Between my OB/GYN, my psycologist, and myself, we decided to switch to a safer brand and half the dose. I started out on Clomiprimine 200mg. I slowly weaned off of that and onto 20mg Prozac. I still will be going up to 40mg but that’s it.

The process has not been nice. Like I said, my issues are pretty extreme so to keep me any type of normal I need high doses of the meds I use. Dropping those meds then switching them has really messed me up. I don’t think I have done dishes or any type of house work for over 2 weeks. Luckily my husband is like sent from god himself so he hasn’t missed a beat<3 The depression has been crippling. It is so hard to be in a state where you don’t want to move or even eat. Crying all day with no real reason. It was absolutely miserable. I have slowly started to feel better and now I am feeling the excitement. I get the chance to be a mom again! I have gotten the go ahead from all my doctors, some family and my husband, who is freaking out excited!! I have only told some family. The people we haven’t told are the people we want to surprise when the pregnancy arises. Seriously guys, I am on cloud 9 right now! I feel like everything is just falling into place ❀ And now that things have leveled out so well, I am back to my normal nail painting self!

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For my first mani in over a week I used Zoya Dream. After having all girls I am really hoping for a boy!! My husband swears it will be but we shall see… It did give me a theme though. I went simple with 2 stamps that just scream baby! I used Glisten & Glow’s Mother Sky to stamp with and Top Coat to seal it all up. The stamper I used is my go to and my favorite, the Long Clear Stamper from Polished Vino. Lastly, the plates I used were both from Pueen’s First Generation collection, Plates 12 & 14. It’s simple but it gives me serious baby boy vibes!

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What do you think? Have you gone through anything like this? I would really love to hear how your experience was! If it is not something you want to share publicly you can email me at jstmynails@gmail.com. Well, thanks so much for listening to my ramblings πŸ™‚ I hope you all have a great weekend ❀

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